| Damn itz been a long azz minute! I dunno what to do wit myself! I can feel thingz changin! All i wanna do iz just do sumthin else and become stable wit who i am. I can move on now. Itz not that i hadn't moved on, but titz the forgivin part that i needed to do. I felt those lips for the first time. Damn...haven't been kissed like that in foreva! Itz about goddamn time! I'm tired as hell tho cuz i have been doin African Dance! I am havin fun tho! My body loves to dance, but most of the time when i do it, i meditate. Even when i'm doin mai hip hop, i'm not thinkin about what i'm doin, i'm thinkin about sumthin else! I'll smile tho juzz fo Ms. D. Mark got in a fight...i was sad cuz i told his ass not too! I won't be seein him for a few dayz then! I luv updating but i am not even tryin to be on herre fo too long! |
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| Itz amazing how thingz make u feel! I can't help but to not feel that way about him. But i can't help but to feel like he iz gonna hold it against me. But ya... i got these feelingz fo sumone else. I dunno how he feelz about me tho! But newayz...i wish people would stop talkin shit about people! Why u guyz gotta be like that to my homecoming date. I got luv fo the kid and i don't think that about him...maybe u bitches do tho! So...fuck u! |
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| The feeling just isn't there. I'm sorry but itz not. I mean...if thingz between me and him were different then i could use th relationship. But u talk so much shit and i kno it. The way u expressed yourself to me made me nervous. The way we were there together made me feel like good old times! The thing i did was stupid! I can't believe u took it that way! It wasn't supposed to be that way. I do luv u hella, but just not like that! We'll talk. |
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| My long absense was caused by my lack of a computer. I really do love u! I have had sums hit goin on... me and sumone hate eachother...i need a date for homecoming even tho if no one asks me first i kno who i want to ask. Sadiki is not my boyfriend just in case Andre told ne one different! That kids works my nerves. I miss spending hours on here. I need a life. I went to the dance and had fun. Steve and i are finished! I never thot u could fall in and out of love so fast. I never thot me and him would say the thingz we said to eachother. What happened to the whole no strings attached fling. I do love Matt tho. That little boy loves to break my heart! Everyone makes mistakes! U remember that. All the way so far away from me when i need u here. We could be bestest buddies. I am having my first serious crush since forever. Well i dunno if itz real cuz itz like a 3 week crush and i want to throw in the towel already cuz hez takin sum other chic to homecoming. I kno exactly who i want to ask tho! Well not really but still. Itz all good! I'm saddened by the way my life is going. I went to my first concert. Well not really. ALL AMERICAN REJECTS! Kinda gay but still kinda kool. I got to punch a bitch! I guess me and Taylor will find dates sum how!
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| Ok...i'ms till up! I wonder if my mom will still let me go to sleep when the lil kid leaves prolly at like 7 in the morning. It is currently 5:12 am. But ya...surprisingly i am not sleepy. Not even the slightest bit! I wonder how long it will take those 3 to wake Shawnelle's 7 year old sister. Hmm...i've been contemplating alot this summer. Sumtimez i live too much for the moment. There has beens sumthin that i have really wanted to try...but when i get around too it i find sum reason why i cannot. It really suckz...not my choice. But ya... on the other side of my mind is my forbidden relationship with Stinger. I am beginning to hate that name. It reminds me of camp and him being my counselor. It reminds me how we had to hind our relationship that whole week cuz ppl thot it was innapropriate. I didn't want him to get fired. My mom is ok with the fact that he is a counselor but doesn't approve of the way he is. His family hates the fact that i was a camper. It was an instant attraction that we both knew we shouldn't have touched. On his day off we spent the whole time together pretending to have a wholesome camper-counselor conversation. My friends knew better than that. They could see the way he looked at me across the crowded rooms. I stole hsi sun glasses so i could see his eyes at all times. I mean a Mexican with green/gray eyes! But ya...I remember the first time we kiss and then the first time we really kissed. My friends were on watch. We were both so nervous...it was crazy! He held me before we left. Well a half an hour before we left. I never kissed him goodbye cuz we had to seperate befor neone saw us that close. I dunno why it was such a huge deal. The kid loves me and i love him...i mean whatz the deal...it wasn't our ages. Itz crazy! But outside of camp we're completely legal! How crazy is that! Baby u kno what i mean! I luv u so much!
POWERFUL IMAGINATION SHANTE!!!
~Te |
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